Welcome, Saz!
I'm so glad you found this forum. I'm still rather new here, myself. I've already found it comforting, informative and very helpful. I'm sure you will as well. Sorry your last 10 yrs have been so trying. You made it through and I bet ya the next 10 (and beyond!) will be much better.
Glad to have you with us.
BTW, I'm 46 as well.

Cassandra
46, ET since at least 24yrs old when plts were 3.3million, now on agrylin .5 3X/day, plts currently 486, California